Current mood:	indescribable
Current music:	TV

Now what?
As usual, I feel a mess.

Monetary issues are usually the furthest thing from my mind, but now they've decided to leap up and make me feel old and helpless.

Following my own selfish ways, I've decided to treat myself to 2 cons, Otakon and AnimeNext. But since that runs into the hundreds, add in gas money, Father's Day, costume money, food, meaningless crap I can't control myself from buying, and then we got issues. :/

Since I started working half way during a pay cycle, I haven't been paid in quite a while. I work at a school, and summer vacaation's starting soon. I can't ask my parents for money because they just bought me a damn car. I think I'll have to break out the credit card for the first time in my life. D:

omgwhinewtfamigoingtodo -_-

I certainly don't feel jealous that many of friends' lives seem to be going wonderfully, and they're happy with their choices, it makes me feel left out. If left to my own devices, I'd be a lazy country-hopping concert-goer forever. But there's so much other stuff I want to do with my life. I just can't seem to work up the motivation. I wish I knew why..

And I'm scared to admit it to myself, but something's wrong with my aunt's memory. Very wrong, and it might be something I certainly don't want to hear. She's my second mom. And my family, being idiots on both sides, aren't doing anything about. All I can do is go talk to her privately by myself. But what do you say?